Thursday, February 6, 2020

The Emotional Struggles of Downsizing

I kept going back and forth on whether I wanted to publish this post on moving from a bigger place to a smaller place. I tend to do that a lot, I think because it's difficult to be vulnerable on such a public platform. 

But then I thought that maybe there's someone else out there who needs someone to relate to. Life just isn't going your way. You thought at your age you'd be in a much better financially. You have to make sacrifices just to make ends meet. Friend, if this is you, you are not alone! 

One of the hardest sacrifices we had to make last year was downsizing, and that was (and is still) very emotional. 

An Emotional Move

I think most people can relate to the stress and just overall mental toll moving has on a person. The months leading up to it, packing, and despite how much I thought I prepared, once the time came, there was SOOO much to do in such a little time span.

But this has been more than stressful - it's been very emotional. We moved from a 1,500 sqare foot house to a 900 square foot apartment. Downsizing with a growing family is very difficult. We were in that house for 2 years, which is the longest my husband and I have ever lived in one place together. It was incredibly difficult to let it go.

How & Why We Downsized

A little over 2 years ago, we had to evacuate our home because of Hurricane Harvey, which destroyed that house along with 90% of our belongings. You can read all about how God provided for us during that time in this blogpost

After a week of staying at my in-laws house, they got us into the really nice, 3 bedroom, 1,500 square foot house by paying the 1st year rent up front. (We are beyond grateful for their generosity!!). We just had to sign a 2 year lease. So during that first year, we were really building our savings account! And we were so hoping and praying for my husband to land a higher paying job so that we could even stay in that house for a few more years. 

But God had other plans for us. So the entire second year at that house, we had to use the savings we had built up to pay rent. Spring of this year, as we were anticipating our lease ending, we knew we wouldn't be able to renew. Thus, we downsized, and here we are, in our humble, 2 bedroom apartment.

The Struggle of Downsizing is Real

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Before I write out the biblical truth and encouragement that is helping me to be content with our situation, let me also say this - this is really hard! Everyday there's a temptation to be angry and bitter that things haven't gone the way we want to. Lies try to creep in saying "God doesn't care about y'all as much as He cares about those people. He's THEIR provider but not yours."

Encouragement

Here's what is helping me to endure -

NO HOUSE ON THIS EARTH IS MY HOME.


No matter what place I'm living in, my heart is always longing for my eternal home. I'm not saying this to be annoyingly peppy, in your face spiritual. Because I honestly REALLY REALLY want to be a home owner. But I long for my eternal home so much more. 

It doesn't always feel very real to think about eternity and what heavenly life will be like. But I think when we get there, that place will feel a thousand times more real than our earthly life ever felt. This concept really planted in my mind after reading a Ted Dekker book. 



So I'm clinging to that hope, that my heavenly home will be so much more satisfying and real than any earthly home I may obtain in this life. 


John 14:2
In My Father’s house are many dwelling places; if it were not so, I would have told you; for I go to prepare a place for you.


Have you ever been forced to downsize for the sake of your finances? I'd love to see your story in the comments!